when summer makes you dream a little

we spent a great day and 1/2 with our 4 nephews and 1 niece. I almost packed them all up and took them with me. They are so great, I love them.
We hadn't seen each other for almost 2 years. I can't believe how everyone has grown so much. It has been so much fun to be called "aunt Naomi" so many times in a day and to play around with all of them. Playing ping pong, tennis, pool time, eating ice cream and sleeping all in the same room. What do you want more really? It's amazing what a day like this brings to you. I feel like it was long a month for all it has brought me.

After a day missing them all we are able to get back together again. San Diego is the spot this time. I can't wait. It is our short getaway for 2 days, with more nephews and niece time, and camping in our new volvo :) That should be fun hahahaha who knows, might be the only time we actually want to do something like that, might as well keep ourselves young right?

Here we come sunshine!

{beautiful photography by Elena Kalis, others via Design Mom, and ffffound}

it feels good

to be home. No matter where that is.

The trip went fine. It was long of course. Switzerland and LA are never close enough. When it becomes longer then 24 hours I just stop counting..
I got to hug my husband again after almost 2 months. If I have to count the fact we saw each other only for a week before I left, then it is over 2 months. Either way, somehow being together it is even better now :) I feel extremely blessed, that's for sure. He's so dang great. I think somehow he's even greater now, is that even possible?? yes it is :)
We promised each other we'll never do this again. Being away from each other for so long. It is crazy! But I got to hug my dad again, saying goodbye and be a little with my mom after that. This are things you just don't plan ahead. Being married for only 6 months and find out that my dad was diagnosed with terminal cancer, your life just changes. Even that fresh newly weds excitement is dissolved in pieces by a crude and hard reality. That isn't something you plan, or wish or could even see it happening. I thought we still had time ahead, our future kids were gonna have grandpa Emilio teaching them all the secrets of good nutrition, hard labor, simple life, good taste, laughing hard, passion for nature and all the things that are oh so good and oh so beautiful.
I hope that I'll be able to do all that, and to make my dad known to our future children by telling them all about him. Somehow I hope I'll be able to bring him alive in their lives. I think my husband is not too worried.. I have so much of my dad in me if I want it or not.

one of those days..

It is a day where I just realize how much I have thought of others and not enough of myself. Oh gosh when am I ever gonna learn this lesson? At the same time it just couldn't be different.
As much as I'm so exhausted I'm pretty happy and glad for all I've accomplished while here in Switzerland. I'll be leaving very soon now, to go back to my home, my husband I haven't seen for almost 2 months now. It has been quite a ride, hard, sad, happy, a little of everything but in big, BIG doses. Quite an experience. I'm not even gonna try to explain it cause I don't know where to start. But I do feel my dad very close to me, in a way I didn't even thought possible. It is great. I don't miss him like I thought I would, with that sad, desperate emptiness. He is close to me.
Somehow in me though I have the fear that taking a plain and get so faraway from where he built his life and finished it, I won't feel him that close. I know.. silly of me. I know I'll be taking him with me no matter where I'll go and be, but for now I have to deal with this feelings.

I have new goals for the next months, year. I hope I can be as good to myself as I'm to others sometimes. I hope I can get that balance I once had to make my life a little easier and oh much better. I'll just need to follow my new motto of the year "one thing at a time" and I'll be able to accomplish everything.

For now, so long and see you in L.A. My husband-my home :)

moving.. could it be fun?

mmm not really :)
Well, I've always liked to travel, visit new places and all. But looking back at my last 5 months, I think I'm so ready to be in one place for longer then.. yep 5 months :)

Ok there is a fun part of it. One of the things my husband and I like to do when we are together is simply walking and talking. Yep, that seems to be our best formula.
Not to mention very often it brings us very easily to a state of "day dream" about things we would like, wish, love and appreciate. I love those moments..